The Loch to Zeno’s Paradox Weblog

You can try the best you can
Try the best you can
The best you can is good enough

Radiohead – Optimistic (click to download)

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Sometimes, when you feel let down, God uses a beautiful soul to encourage you. Sometimes God uses you to encourage that person. Thank God for His timing. I have the tendency to get bogged down in problems, pain and regret, but God works to make sure I don’t focus on the pain too much.

Also, one of the things God has dealt with me as of late is to be bold and honest. For too often have I considered too closely the feelings of others–to the point that it began to hurt me. I am never trying to be cruel, but I will be brutally honest. If I say something that you have a hard time reading, then talk to me about it. I am not going to beat around the bush. I may not be 100% explicit with details, but I will say exactly the point of what is on my mind.

I never intend to hurt anyone, but I’m tired of always holding back. This blog, for however long it will be kept up, will display the real me. No more bluffs.

ANYWAY, to the point of the blog:

I got to talk to one Alyssa Weaver about a lot of things going on in my life. She is a girl most radiant. I met her my freshman year at DBU (I forgot how?), and her personality made an impact on me. I had not seen her for a few years, so it was great to talk about whatever. In particular, we delved into topics about God and our relationships, and it was a most lovely and encouraging time. It was nice for her to have a better idea of what I’m all about as of late.

If you do not know, I was very, very insecure and awkward (in a bad way) my freshman year of college at Dallas Baptist University. Now I am secure and awkward (in a good way), and God has been doing great things in my life. He is giving me joy and peace. I know that I am in the will of God and that I depend on Him for all things. I have begun to truly love people.

Someone once implied that I am now able to love said person more now than I ever did before. Isn’t it supposed to be true that as you love Christ and yourself, that in turn you will love others more? This is exactly the picture being portrayed. My life is becoming so much more beautiful. I love my friends and I tell them how I feel. I love to connect with people and talk about Christ. God is giving me blessings gratuitously. I am so very grateful for all things.

Even when I suffer, God takes care of me. I love the book of Psalms and, in particular, Psalm 40. It figures that one of the first passages of Scripture I ever memorized during my days of homeschooling would be used to encourage me so much:

Psalm 40:12d “…my heart has failed me and forsaken me.“

And ever since God has broken me down and taken away three of the most important things in my life, I have been truly dependent on His care. Thank God for that. I wouldn’t go back in time and change anything if it meant missing out on what God is showing me now. It would have been nice to make better choices the first time around, but I’ll take what God gives me as time unfolds.

For those of you who have been truly loyal to me all these years, thank you so much. I love you more than you may ever know.

-Daniel

(P.S. I’m going to Austin. Bye.)

(P.S. 2 I want to give a shout out to my mates Kurt McWhorter, Sara Triana and Katie Peterson who helped me have a most wonderful weekend in Dallas, TX. Thanks you guys.)